LIFE IS A CUP OF COFFEE

WHY ARE WE LIVING?

Many times that I asked myself about this matter. Why am I living?

In a bird's eye-view, the cycle of life is very basic. You are born, grow, live and die. If you believe in reincarnation, you are born in other way. You grow, live and die. Our existence has been vindicated by lots of explanations, from scientific to religious views, from mundane beliefs to the very core of social interpretations. But who knows the significance of our existence?

Are we govern by a specific law that determines our everyday life? Do philosophy create the meaning of our existence or our existence mold our philosophy?

Life is full of irony.
We live to die.
We feel happiness to distinguish it from sadness.
We experience comfort to know suffering.
We love to be hated.
We sleep to wake up.
We create to destroy.
We love to feel pain.

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We are living to fulfill a journey. But who plans our journey?
We are living to experience life. But is it necessary to experience life?
We are living to change others' lives. But who says that we should change others' lives?
We are living to find the meaning of our existence. But what is so special in finding our significance?
We are living because we are part of a life cycle.
We are living because we defy our own journey and our own purpose.
We are living because we are worthy to live.

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First time I saw the trailer of "Adjustment Bureau" starring Matt Damon and Emily Blunt, I was thrilled by its plot and the idea of challenging what is planned for you by understanding and following your free will.

Are we living by following such divine plan? Or are we living by our own free will? That we are creating our own journey. That we are choosing our destiny. That we are responsible for the life that we are living.

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I am living because life is a grace that I should value more than the meaning of my existence. I am living because I chose to live.

RANDOM TXT MESSAGES

My inbox is full but I don't want to delete some messages.  So, I'd rather post and share these life quotations from friends.
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I won't dare question God why I undergo trials and challenges because I never question Him when I experience victory and happiness.

Sometimes not everything you want is given to you like the ideal person you wanna be with.  It may not turn out the way you expect it to be, but at the end you will see what you have is better than what you wanted.

Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their hard work. For if one of them  should fall, the other one can raise his partner. (Ecclesiastes 4:9-10)

Happiness can not be found at the end of the road.  It is the journey itself that matters.  Enjoy life and be happy.

Don't look for things or people that are not there. Just always be thankful for what you have; because the more you look for something not with you, the more you find something wrong with what you have. 

If God answers your prayers, He is increasing your faith.  If he delays, He is increasing your patience.  If He does not answer, He knows you can handle it.

The really happy person is the one who can enjoy the scenery, even when they have to take a detour. (Sir James Jeans)

What you have right now is what you deserve for now until God see you ready for the next level.

As much as you want to plan your life, it has a way of surprising you with unexpected things that will make you happier than you originally planned.

Not everything that you wanted and worked hard for is always meant to be yours. Somehow you lose. But when you lose, there will come a better one that you surely deserve more than anything.

Make your words soft, sweet and smooth. So when there comes a time you have to eat them, you can swallow easily.

There is always a part of that past that we want to have back but we could never have gotten what we have today if we did not let go of such yesterday.

Life daily task : Make sure you make someone happy before the day ends even if that someone is yourself.

When your life goes wrong, do not waste your time looking back at what you have lost for the road of life was not meant to be traveled backward. Just move on and say, "I am with God. I will get through."

CHAT WITH ATTORNEY

Last night was a long conversation with a newly found friend. The conversation was spontaneous although most of the stories were his. We jumped from one topic to another as we talked about life, religion, dreams, personality and character, and life-changing experiences. From that small chat, I got a glimpse of what future can offer, of what things that I should take seriously, of what important decisions to make and of what should I be.

These are few tid-bits that I have to ponder:

• Should I dream bigger?  Before I graduated in college, I already had my plans.  Enter the industry for at least two years to gain experience. Target industry or work area concerns industrial waste management.  While working, enroll in a graduate schools here in the Philippines or abroad for a Master's degree with the specialization in Environmental Engineering and Management. After receiving the degree, enter the government or the academe to give back the goodness of life.  Basically, that is the structure.

As of now, although as optimistic as I can be, I'm quite skeptical if things will go the way I planned. Thanks to attorney.  I have my answer.

"Part of our plans will not work the way we expected but it is just a matter of adjusting our thinking close to reality".  We often frustrate ourselves with expectations yet we are aware that our expectations is beyond reality.  We want a prospering career in a span of short time yet our expertise are not well-equipped.  For a beginner like me, I dream to be at the top of my game yet what I have in the moment are technical theories yet very lacking in actual practice.  To realize that dream, reality check is needed.  "Wait, is it really possible with this period of time?  Let me evaluate. How long will it take me to be at the top? How long will it take to master my specialization? How long will it take to be an expert? How long will I achieve that big dream?"

The big dreams are part of me.  It may be set aside for a while due to unforeseen circumstances but it's still burning.  The passion. The dynamics, The pulsating excitement.  The gyration of hope.  The realization of dreams. Those are still alive inside me.

• What are the things that will satisfy and, at the same time, content me?  I always say that contentment is relative.  It is upon the discretion of the people based on nature and nurture. You may hear a lot of people talking about the zeroes in their paycheck, newly acquired properties, top of the line cars, and other luxuries of life yet they are still clamoring for more. They particularly know what are the things that fill them but time will come that those are no longer satisfying.  They are no longer contented.  So the important question is how long till I feel full and content?  When will that be?

As a young professional, I often told myself that CAREER can give me satisfaction and to be more particular, a REMARKABLE CAREER.  I accepted the challenge in my present workplace because of this.  The position I handle is a pioneer.  It means I am the one that will build great things from ashes. I will design my plans in conformance to the goals of the company.  Does it feel rewarding?

Yes. It feels great.  Greatness, I must say, is one of the things that is very attracting and addicting. It satisfies me whereas contentment is another thing worthy to find.  And I believed attorney found it already.

"A point in your life will tell you that it is the time to enjoy.  Feel free from responsibility.  Feel free from the arrogance of strangers.  Feel the warmth of the sun.  Hear the whispering wind that touches your skin.  Throw away your burden on your shoulders.  Live life to the fullest because at the end of the day, it is your responsibility to yourself to be happy and content."

• Life offers much of what I need but what can I offer to life?  Culture of community belongingness is a major trademark during my college years.  We did regular outreach activities both for short and long term development assistance.  We crossed rivers to reach the Dumagats of Bulacan. We facilitated literacy program for underprivileged children of Ipo.  We tried to build homes in conjunction of the vision of Gawad Kalinga.  This spirit of sharing was indeed life changing experiences. 

I almost forgot that particular endeavor of becoming a VOLUNTEER when I enter the industry and focus on my career.  I became inactive in civic clubs where I used to be a member. I became a plain person without purpose.  That's how it felt.

Fortunately, I was invited in our Alma Mater to be a Guest Speaker in their Annual Student Congress with the Alumni last September.  It was a career congress per se.  I shared pieces of experiences which concerns my career.  Cited some instances that encouraged the students to pursue their career with utmost devotion. Shortly after that, the feeling was familiar.  It was a privilege that revived the VOLUNTEER in me.

I had the same feeling last night when attorney revealed to me a story that led to the establishment of his foundation.  I was amazed on how people touch other people's lives in an instant, on how God moves people to serve Him, on how a person changes lives and making a difference.  As for me, another door opens for me to get in and catch up to the journey I started.

Our conversation ended with much appreciation, learning and hope.

TIME for a CHANGE

TIME. CHANGE. HEALING.

Something inside is bothering me.  Though can hardly explain what it is, I am 100% sure that it is EMOTIONAL STRESS.  From time to time, it has been my little thingy jerk that hurt me from the inside.  It triggers disbelief, false hope and endless longing.  Yes! I'm talking about heartaches brought by emotional dependency.

Three things that dishearten my emotional dependency are TIME, CHANGE and HEALING.  These are abstracts that create rejection, adjustment and moving on.

TIME is like a shadow from the past that is terrifying.  It pushes me to decide faster, act swifter, and move further even though there are still remnants of failed relationship to ponder.  It always reminds of me resentment and disappointments.  I could have been better if time permitted.  I could have been more valuing if TIME took its longer time.  I could have been more ME.

CHANGE is a bullet that can not be stopped.  If you try to stop it, you're the one who will earn the pain.  Change does not give its speed.  Sometimes it is in a slow pace but more often it is in rapid state.  Never close your eyes or else it will just pass by.  Though there are things that provide clue for the coming change, still I can not see it cause mostly it's coming from behind.  It changes its colors, shapes, and size.  If only I tried to ride with change, I might be stronger.  I might be wiser.  I might be still holding that life of comfort and assurance.  Not this loneliness and loveless aches.

HEALING also disheartens me but it is a feeling of something new is coming.  I might not be 100% prepared but I know it is something to look forward.  Healing is like whispers from the past that gave you glimpse of failed relationship, wrong decisions, and things that I cried over spilled milk.

CHANGE and HEALING take TIME.  And for sure, a stronger, wiser, and  more prepared MAN is in the frontier of bigger opportunity, brighter future and well deserved love after TIME, CHANGE and HEALING take its course.